Osho –
Dhammapada: The Way of The Buddha (Volume 1)
Chapter 4. Just
lucky, I guess!
Question 1:
Beloved Master,
Upon returning to Holland last year I
started communicating about you with an overwhelming sense of urgency. I felt
you imparted this urgency to me, but it seemed also to be a part of my nature.
This feeling of not having a second to
lose, the wish to get more dutch people to become sannyasins as soon as
possible, made me far from playful. The seriousness led to much anguish because
I was confronted with indifference, ridicule and contempt, especially from the
journalists. Objectively I did not fail – far from it - but in terms of being,
my trip was not exactly wu-wei. I simply could not combine this urgency with
joy and relaxation.
Will you say a few words on this urgency,
even though you have given me so much already?
Deva Amrito, the playfulness
that I talk about comes very slowly. You cannot just jump out of your
seriousness which you have accumulated for lives. Now it has a force of its
own.
It is not a simple matter to
relax; it is one of the most complex phenomena possible, because all that we
are taught is tension, anxiety, anguish. Seriousness is the very core the
society is built around. Playfulness is for small children, not for grown-up
people.
And I am teaching you to be
children again, to be playful again. It is a quantum leap, a jump...but it
takes time to understand.
And as far as I am concerned,
you have been immensely successful: objectively, certainly, but subjectively
too. Unexpectedly you have been successful. Anybody else in your place would
have been in a madhouse.
You were excited, and it is
natural to be excited. When somebody understands me, feels me, he immediately
starts feeling an urgency - not a single moment to lose. And the word has to be
spread. A kind of tremendous immediacy overwhelms. It is natural! It is true
that there is not a single moment to lose. And if you love me, you would like
all those people to come to me, because they may not get the opportunity again
- for centuries, for lives together!
When you love, and you have
found a treasure, you would like to share it. And if the treasure is such that
it can disappear any moment, how can you avoid the feeling of immense urgency?
You will have to shout from the tops of the houses.
And the response that you will
get is absolutely certain and fixed. The more you would like people to come to
me, the more they will escape - from you, from the very idea of coming to me.
And the only way to escape is to ridicule you, to laugh at you, to call you
mad. That is their way of defending themselves. If they listen to you
understandingly, if they allow you to overwhelm their being, to overflow into
their being, to flood their being, then they will also find themselves in the
same grip. And it will be very difficult for them to avoid.
Hence, from the very beginning
they will ridicule you, criticize you, oppose you, laugh at you. They will do
everything possible to create the feeling in you that you are wrong.
But they failed. They could not
create that feeling in you. The more they ridiculed you, the more they laughed,
the more they criticized, the more you tried to convince them.
And you have been objectively
successful - you have convinced thousands of people.
Since your going to Holland,
many many Dutch people have arrived, and more are arriving, and more will go on
arriving. You have created a great stir. You have touched many people's hearts.
And it has been a great experience for your inner growth too.
The impact that you created has
not got into your head yet; it has not made you more of an egoist. In fact, it
has made you more humble. It may not have been exactly wu-wei, but it was very
close. And I was not expecting it to be absolutely wu-wei, but it has been more
than I was expecting.
I was a little bit afraid,
Amrito, that you might go mad. The urgency was such, your ecstasy was such, you
were so passionately in love with me, that I was afraid deep down. I was
sending you with all kinds of apprehensions. But you survived the test.
You have come back. The turmoil
that was created around you because of your talking about me - in the
newspapers, on the radio, the TV - the way you talked, it gave the sense of
your immense love, it gave the sense that you have found the home.
Many have been convinced. And
many who have not been convinced have also started thinking about it. And even
those who have ridiculed you and have opposed you are impressed; otherwise who
cares? Why should you oppose somebody if you are not impressed? Why should you
ridicule and laugh if you are simply alert that he is mad?
Nobody laughs at a madman,
nobody ridicules a madman. It is enough to know that he is mad and everything
is finished!
You have created a chain which
will go on. And I would like many of my sannyasins to be so excited, to feel
the urgency, to go to their countries and spread the word. And you will have to
shout from the tops of the houses.
And whenever you are in love
you look mad - you are mad. Love is madness...but far higher than the
so-called, mediocre, mundane sanity. And love is blindness, but a blindness
that is capable of seeing the invisible.
Love is not part of the
ordinary world that we have created. We have expelled love from it. So whenever
you are in love - and to be in love with a master, to be in love with a buddha,
is the ultimate love - it drives you crazy. It makes you part of the beyond.
Nobody can believe it.
How can your friends, Amrito,
believe it, that it has happened to you and it has not happened to them? It is
so much against their egos that you have found and they have not found yet, and
still they are struggling. No, the easier way for them is to deny, to say that
you have not found, that you are in an illusion, that you have been hypnotized,
that you are hallucinating, that you have been drugged. That gives them a
consolation, that gives them a kind of at-easeness. If you have really found,
then they will feel very very uneasy - then their lives are failures.
It has been a beautiful
experience. I know you could not be very playful. It was difficult.
Next time when I send you, you
will be more playful. Now don't get afraid! I know that you don't want to go
back again. Enough is enough...but one more time. Next time the whole project
is to be playful. Then people will laugh more and they will think that you have
gone even more mad. But laugh...dance, sing. This time you were arguing. Next
time no arguing - singing, dancing, hugging people.
But I am absolutely happy.
Whatsoever has happened has been good objectively, has been good for others,
has been good for you. It is a device: to send you for a particular purpose is
a device for your inner growth. And you have been successful.
There was every possibility of
being a failure.
I am reminded:
Once George Gurdjieff asked
P.D. Ouspensky, his chief disciple of those days, to come from London to a
faraway place somewhere in the Caucasus. It was very difficult.
Financially Ouspensky was
bankrupt. He had no money, no house to live in, nobody to support him. And such
a long journey! And the times were very dangerous. In those parts of the world
it was dangerous to move, because the Russian revolution was happening. People
were being massacred, killed, murdered. There was no peace. Even Gurdjieff had
to leave Russia, and he was hiding in the mountains of the Caucasus.
It was not a right time to go
there; it was very dangerous. The journey was not easy: all the trains were
unsettled, roads were cut, bridges were broken. It was chaos! But when the
master calls, the disciple has to follow. Whatever belongings he had, he sold.
He borrowed money from people, and traveled thousands of miles. It took him
almost thirty days to reach Gurdjieff. Tired, tattered, thinking many times,
"What am I doing?
People are escaping from
Russia, and I am going there!" And he was on the blacklist of the
communists, because he was a well-known figure - chief disciple of George
Gurdjieff, a well-known, world-famous mathematician, a great author, one of the
greatest the world has ever known. His books were translated into almost all
the languages of the world. Going back to Russia was dangerous. He could be caught,
imprisoned, killed. He was anticommunist! - no sensible person can be a
communist, because the whole idea is nonsense. But he traveled... and when he
reached Gurdjieff, Gurdjieff looked at him and the first thing that he said
was, "Go back to London and start work again."
Now that was too much.
Ouspensky failed. He could not trust this man. Now what kind of a joke is this?
Playing with somebody's life in such a way... and immediately he said, "Go
back right now! I have nothing else to say."
Ouspensky went back - turned
against Gurdjieff, became an enemy. That was a great device of a great master.
If he had trusted, he would have become enlightened. He missed the opportunity.
He died an unenlightened person.
When things are going smooth
and easy, trust is easy - but it is worthless. When things become difficult,
arduous, impossible, and you can still trust, when it becomes absolutely
illogical to trust and you can still trust, only such a trust becomes a
transforming force.
Amrito, I am going to send you
one more time. And remember, I am not a very consistent man: it may be twice,
thrice... it depends. But for the moment, one time I am going to send you -
that much is certain.
And this time the project is
being playful.
Question 2:
Beloved Master,
Why are there so many religions in the
world, and why do these religions continuously quarrel with each other?
Geetam, it is natural that
there should be so many religions. In fact, more are needed.
As I see it, each individual
should have his own religion; there should be as many religions as there are
people. The number is not so much: there are only three hundred religions - and
how many people on the earth?
Each individual should have his
own religion, because each individual is so unique, so different from anybody
else. How can two persons have one religion? It is impossible.
But we have been asking the
impossible. Each individual has to reach God in his own way, and that way is
never going to be traveled by anybody else again.
Hence, buddhas can only
indicate, can only give you hints. They cannot provide you with certain,
absolutely certain maps - just hints, a few hints. And those hints have not to
be taken very seriously - very playfully. You are not to become a fanatic. If
you become a fanatic you are no longer religious.
A religious person is humble,
available to all kinds of hints; he is a seeker, a searcher, an explorer, and
he will learn from every possible source. He will learn from the Bible, and he
will learn from the Vedas, and he will learn from THE DHAMMAPADA. He will
listen to Buddha, to Jesus, to Zarathustra. He will learn from all possible
sources, but still he will remain himself. He will not become an imitation, he
will not become a carbon copy. He will retain his authenticity. He will be
humble, sincere, authentic; he will not become pseudo. He will not be a
follower, he will be a lover.
He will love the buddha, but he
will not follow him; he will not follow him in the details. How can you follow
a buddha in the details? He is a totally different kind of person. You have
never been before, nobody like you has ever been before, and nobody who is
exactly like you will ever be there again. Hence your religion has to be your
religion, your truth has to be your truth.
And that is the beauty of
truth, that it always comes in such a unique form that you can say, "This
is a special gift from God to me." Hence there are so many religions. And
it is beautiful! - there should be many more. Many people have been trying to
make one religion; that is utter stupidity. You cannot create one religion. You
can enforce one religion on people, but that will destroy their spirit, their
freedom; that will cripple their being and paralyze their growth.
Just as there are so many
languages, there are so many religions. The variety is beautiful, the variety
makes it possible for you to choose according to your type.
Religion is not and cannot be
decided by birth, and those who decide their religion by their birth are utter
fools. You cannot be born a Hindu and you cannot be born a Christian; birth has
nothing to do with your religion. Religion is an inquiry. You may be born to
Hindu parents - that is one thing - but if your parents really love you they
will not convert you into a Hindu. Of course they will tell you all they have
known and experienced, but they will leave you free. And they will tell you,
"Become more alert, watchful, mature, and when you are mature enough and
you want to decide, choose your own religion."
Go to the mosque, go to the
church, go to the temple, go to the gurudwara. Listen to all kinds of things,
see all kinds of flowers: the garden of God is so full of variety, is so rich
because of variety. There are roses and lotuses and a thousand and one other
flowers.
Go and choose your own perfume,
your own fragrance, because unless you yourself choose you will not be
dedicated to it, you will not be surrendered to it.
The world is not religious
because religion is imposed upon us. The parents are in a hurry to impose; the
church, the state, the country - everybody is in a hurry to impose a certain
religion on the child. How foolish! How stupid! Religion needs maturity, great
understanding, before one can choose.
Nobody is born a Hindu or a
Mohammedan or a Parsi. Everybody is born clean, innocent, a tabula rasa, and then everyone has to
seek and search. This is the beauty of life because life is an inquiry. And
don't be settled too early; there is no need.
It is possible that no existing
religion may satisfy you. But that is good; that means a new religion is born
in you. The world becomes richer: one more religion, one more flower, one more
tree - a new phenomenon.
Buddha brings a new religion
into the world; the world was poorer before Buddha because it was missing
Buddhism. Buddha could have followed the religion of his parents; then the
world would have been still poor. The world would have missed something
immensely valuable, a new door to God. Buddha opened a new door, a new vision,
a new insight. He was not convinced by his parents' religion; otherwise, he
would have remained a Hindu. He rebelled. All religious people are rebellious
people.
He went on an individual search
- all religious people are explorers, all religious people are adventurers. It
would have been easy and convenient and comfortable to believe in the religion
that had been believed in by the parents and the parents' parents, and for
centuries. It would have been more convenient because you need not inquire, you
need not go through the whole effort of finding the truth. It has been found by
some seer in the past - you can simply borrow it. But a borrowed truth is not a
truth at all. A borrowed truth is a lie.
Buddha went on a search;
arduous was the inquiry. He risked all - his kingdom, his life. But when you
risk so much, life showers new treasures on you. A new religion, a new insight,
a new vision, was born into the world.
Mohammed could have followed
his parents' religion. Jesus could have followed Judaism. Become a Jesus,
become a Buddha, become a Mohammed! Don't be a Mohammedan and don't be a
Buddhist and don't be a Christian - explore! Don't waste life in imitating, because
then you will remain pseudo. And a pseudo person cannot be religious. Great
authenticity, sincerity is needed.
So, Geetam, it is good that
there are three hundred religions - there should be more! I am always for
variety. I want the world richer in every possible way. Would you like the
whole world to have only one kind of flower - just roses, or just lotuses? Will
it not be an impoverished world, very poor? Would you like the world to have
only one language? Then the different nuances of the different languages will
disappear.
There are things which can be
said only in Arabic and cannot be said in any other language; and there are
things which can be said only in Hebrew and cannot be said in any other
language. There are things which can be said only in Chinese and cannot be said
in any other language. If the world has only one language, many many beautiful
things will remain unsaid.
Lao Tzu can speak only Chinese.
You may not have pondered over the problem: just think of Lao Tzu writing his Tao Teh Ching in English... and the book
will be totally different. It will miss something of immense value; it will
have something different, a totally different color to it, but it will miss the
flavor that it has in Chinese.
Now, Chinese has no alphabet;
it is written in symbols. Because there is no alphabet, symbols can be
interpreted in a thousand and one ways; symbols are more fluid, less fixed,
more poetic, less prosaic. One symbol can mean many things. It is not
scientific; it is very difficult to write scientific treatises in Chinese. For
that, English is a far more adequate language.
But what Lao Tzu has given to
the world would not have been possible without Chinese. Each symbol has many
meanings, a multiplicity of meanings. You can choose your meaning according to
your state of mind. Each symbol has many layers of meaning. As you grow in your
understanding, the meaning of the symbols changes.
Hence, in the East a totally
different kind of reading has existed which is nonexistent in the West. You
would not like to read the same Bernard Shaw book again and again and again, or
would you? Unless you are insane you would not like to read it again and again
and again. What is the point? Once you have read it, it is finished! That's why
the paperback has come into existence: read it and throw it. But in the East a
different kind of reading exists: the same book is read again and again the
whole life long.
The Tao Teh Ching is not a book which can be published in paperback -
they are doing that now. It should not be published in paperback - it cannot
be, because it is a totally different kind of book. It has layers and layers of
meaning. When for the first time you read it, it is one book because you know
only one meaning, the superficial.
After meditating for a few
months you read it again; another meaning reveals itself; after meditating a
few months more you read it again... a third meaning. It has to go on, it has
to become a life's study.
And you will go on finding the
meanings - they are inexhaustible. Aes dhammo sanantano: the ultimate is
eternal and inexhaustible. It is not a fiction; you cannot just read it and be
finished with it. One reading is not going to help you at all; it simply
introduces you, it does not give you the core of it. It takes a whole life to
come to the core of it.
Now we need all kinds of
languages. English is needed for its definiteness, for its certainty. Each word
has a definition. Science cannot develop without such a language.
Science could not be born in
India because of the language; Sanskrit is a poetic language. You can sing it -
it has that quality - you can chant it, but you cannot make much of a syllogism
out of it. Many songs, certainly, but it is not argumentative; expressive but
nonargumentative.
Arabic has a very haunting
quality. If you chant it, it will become a haunting in your heart. Stop
chanting it and the chanting continues in the heart. Arabic has that quality in
it because it is a desert language; desert languages have a haunting quality.
When you are calling somebody in a desert, far away, you have to call in a
certain way - and in a desert you can call people who are very far away; if you
call them in a rhythmic way your sound will reach them.
Hence the beauty of the Koran.
It is not a book to be read - those who read the Koran will miss its meaning -
it is a book to be sung. It is not a book to be studied: it is a book to be
danced, only then will you reach its inner spirit.
It is beautiful that there are
many languages because there are many things to be said, expressed,
communicated. And as the world grows, many more languages are needed, because
as the world grows, many more things people are feeling, people are going
through, people are reaching.
Religion is nothing but a
language for expressing the ultimate. Geetam, there is nothing wrong in there
being many religions. Of course, there is certainly something wrong in their
constant quarreling with each other. That shows that the so-called religions
have lost their religious quality, they have become political; that these
so-called religions no longer have alive masters in them but only dead, dull,
mediocre priests. They go on quarreling, they go on trying to convert, because
numbers create power. If there are more Christians then Christianity has more
power and the pope in the Vatican becomes more powerful. If Hindus are more in
number, of course they are more in power.
Numbers give power. So Christianity
wants everybody to be a Christian, and Mohammedans would like everybody to be a
Mohammedan, Their ways and means may differ, but the effort and the desire is
the same, a very deep political desire - it is power politics. Then naturally
quarreling will arise. Politics is quarreling; it has nothing to do with
religion.
Religions should be as many as
possible. And there is no question of any conflict: it is a question of like
and dislike. If I like roses, you don't try to come and convince me that I
should like marigolds - you simply accept my liking. And if you like marigolds,
it's perfectly okay; there is no question of arguing, quarreling. We need not
fight with each other - actually or intellectually. I can leave you to your
choice, and I don't feel offended because you like marigolds and I don't like
them.
Likes and dislikes are
individual affairs. One may like the Bhagavadgita, another may like the Koran,
somebody else may like The Dhammapada
- it's perfectly okay, absolutely okay. We should share our likings with each
other, but we should not try to convert the other, to force the other into our
fold. Yes, share by all means, because sharing shows your love. If you have
found a source, share! But the sharing should be out of love, not for power
politics. It is not to convince the other and to drag him into your fold.
Religions have been doing such ugly things. People have been converted at the
point of the bayonet; people are being converted by money, by bribing them... by
any means, right or wrong. Become a Christian! Become a Mohammedan! Become a
Hindu! Grab more and more people so you become more powerful, and don't allow
anybody else to leave your fold.
Mulla Nasruddin's son was
asking him, "Papa, when a Christian becomes a Mohammedan, what do you call
him?"
Nasruddin smiled and said,
"He has come to his senses, he is a man of understanding, wisdom. He has
understood what is false as false and what is truth as truth."
The boy asks again, "And
Papa, if a Mohammedan becomes a Christian what do you call him?"
Nasruddin was very angry and
said, "He is a traitor! He has betrayed. He is stupid!"
Now, if a Christian becomes a
Mohammedan, he is a man of intelligence, a wise man; and if a Mohammedan
becomes a Christian he is a traitor, stupid. And the same is the situation if
you ask the Christian.
A Hindu became a Christian. All
the Hindus were against him, naturally - he had betrayed them! But Christians
made him a saint. Sadhu Sunder Singh was his name.
They almost worshipped him as
if he was an incarnation of Jesus, because he proved the truth of Christianity.
And Hindus? - they were so angry with the man that they wanted to kill him. And
there is every possibility that they did kill him, because one day he suddenly
disappeared and his body has not been found since then. It is still a mystery
what happened to Sadhu Sunder Singh.
I know a man who was a Hindu
and became a Jaina. Hindus were very much against him, naturally, obviously.
They tried in every way to destroy the man, but he became the most famous Jaina
saint. Ganesh Varni was his name. He defeated all other Jaina saints; he
reached the highest pinnacle. What was his real quality? Why did he reach the
highest pinnacle? Because basically he was a Hindu and became a Jaina. "He
proved that Jainism is far higher than Hinduism; otherwise, why has this man,
such a wise man, come to our fold?"
Geetam, these religions quarrel
because they are not religious; they have become more and more political. And
when you quarrel, then everything is right - in love and war everything is
right.
A Catholic is trying to convert
a Jew and tells him that if he becomes a Catholic his prayers will certainly be
answered - because the priest will give them to the bishop, who will give them
to the cardinal, who will give them to the pope, who will shove them up into
heaven through a hole at the top of the Vatican, which just matches a hole in
the floor of heaven, where Saint Peter will take them to the Virgin Mary, who
will intercede on their behalf with Jesus, who will say a good word for them to
God.
The Jew repeats this whole
itinerary with an astonished air, ending, "You know it must be true,
because I have always wondered what they do with all the shit in heaven. They
must throw it down that little hole in the Vatican, where the pope gives it to
the cardinal, who gives it to the bishop, who gives it to the priest, who gives
it to you - and you are trying to hand it to me?"
Religions are good - many more
are needed - but quarreling religions are not religions.
The very quarreling attitude
makes them political. And the priest and the politician have been in a very
subtle conspiracy down the ages - because the politician can dominate the people
through the priest very easily. The priest possesses the souls of the people
and the politician possesses the bodies of the people. Both are oppressors,
exploiters. Both are in the same business, both are partners. Both can help
each other.
The politician can help the
priest because he has temporal power, and the priest can help the politician
because people listen to him, worship him, take his word as divine.
Do you know, Buddhism did not
become a great religion because of Buddha; it became a great religion because
of the emperor Ashoka. It was not because of Buddha that millions of people
became Buddhists, no. While Buddha was alive, only a few, a few chosen people
were courageous enough to walk with him in his light, to commune with him. And
they were courageous - because they had to suffer, they had to suffer much
ridicule, opposition, because the established Hindu church was against this man
Buddha.
Buddhism became a world
religion not because of Buddha but because of the emperor Ashoka. When the Buddhist
priests joined hands with the emperor Ashoka, then the religion became a world
religion. The whole of Asia was converted. Now the priests would help Ashoka to
retain his power, and Ashoka would help the priests become more and more
powerful.
Christianity became a world
religion not because of Jesus. Jesus was very alone - only a few disciples,
twelve disciples, and a few hundred sympathizers, that's all. And even those
disciples disappeared when Jesus was being crucified, and the sympathizers simply
forgot about him; they stopped talking about the man because it was dangerous
even to show sympathy.
It is said that the people who
had sympathized with Jesus came to spit on his face while he was dying to show
the people, "We are against, we are not for him." To prove to the
people...because this man is dying - now they will be in trouble. They have to
live, they still have to live. They have to give some proof that they are
against this man.
They denied Jesus while he was
dying. They threw mud, stones, they spat on his face, just to show the crowds,
"See, isn't this enough proof that the rumors that you have heard that we
are sympathizers are absolutely wrong, unfounded? We are against him as much as
you are - in fact, we are more against him than you are."
The enemies were not spitting
on him but the friends. Jesus became a world force not because of himself but
only when the Roman emperors and Christian priests joined hands. Now, this is
an irony. Jesus was crucified by a Roman emperor - see how history moves!
Pontius Pilate was just a representative of the Roman power, of the Roman
emperor; he simply followed the orders from Rome. Who would ever have thought
that Rome would become the central place of Christianity? Who would ever have
thought while Jesus was being crucified that Rome would be the residence of the
pope? But that's how it happened. When priests joined hands with Emperor
Constantine and other Roman emperors, Christianity became a world force.
Christianity, Buddhism,
Hinduism, Jainism - they have all depended on politics. They are not true
religions anymore but political games being played in the name of religion.
I would like the world to have
many more religions, so many that each individual has his own religion - then
no priest will be needed. That is the only way to drop the priests. If you have
your own religion, no priest is needed - you are the priest and you are the
follower and you are everything.
You have to listen to your
inner voice. Buddha says: Follow your own nature; there is no need for anybody
to intercede on your behalf.
But I am not in favor of
creating one religion; enough of that nonsense! In the past we have been trying
to do that: make one religion so that quarreling can stop. But it is not
possible. Even if you can enforce one religion, if the whole world becomes
Christian, then again there will be Protestants and Catholics and a thousand
and one sects. And the same game will start again: people will start quarreling
- because their needs are different, their understandings are different.
I have heard:
A beautiful young woman came
home from London. She belonged to a small village, was from a Catholic family.
After three or four years of living in London she had become very rich; she
came back to see her parents. The mother could not believe her eyes. She asked,
"How did you manage? You have become so rich - such beautiful clothes, a
diamond ring, a beautiful car!"
And the girl said,
"Mother, I have become a prostitute."
Just hearing this the mother
fainted, became unconscious. When she came back she asked again, "What did
you say?"
The girl said, "Mother, I
said I have become a prostitute."
And the mother started laughing
and she said, "I misunderstood you - I thought you said you had become a
Protestant."
To be a prostitute is okay, but
to become a Protestant...? The same quarreling will start.
Even small religions - for
example, Jainism, one of the smallest religions in the world - have so many
sects, sects within sects. In fact, we have not yet become aware of the great
necessity that each individual needs his own version of God, and each individual
has his own way of approaching God.
A man picked up by a prostitute
in a bar is amazed by the college pennants and diplomas ornamenting the walls
of her room.
"Are these your
diplomas?" he asks.
"Sure," she says
airily. "I have my Master of Arts from Columbia, and took my Ph.D. in
Shakespeare at Oxford."
The man is incredulous.
"But how did a girl like you get into a profession like this?"
"I don't know," she
says. "Just lucky, I guess."
People have different
understandings, different ways of looking at things, different interpretations.
And they have to be allowed this freedom.
Question 3:
Beloved Master,
My parents were christian missionaries in
india for twenty-five years. My brother was a junkie, my sister a compulsive
liar. As for me, I am so serious that if I smile my mouth hurts. How did I end
up here?
Prem Parijat, just lucky, I
guess! You will live in ecstasy and you will die in ecstasy.
Did you hear about the man
eighty-seven years of age who married a nineteen-year-old girl?
He died of a new disease called
ecstasy. It took them three days to wipe the smile off his face.
Now, this is going to happen to
you too: living your life will be a laughter; dying, it will be difficult for
the people to wipe off your smile.
It may be just because your
parents are Christian missionaries that you have landed here, because to be
born to any kind of missionaries - Christian, Hindu or Mohammedan - is to be
fed up with all that nonsense. To be born to a priest is to know one thing for
certain: that priests don't believe in God. It is their business; they pretend.
It is a rare opportunity to be
born in the house of a priest, because children are very perceptive and they
can see through and through that all that nonsense that their father in
preaching is just preaching - he does not mean it because he never practices
it. The children of the priests are bound to become aware of the hypocrisy of
the so-called religious people.
It may be just because of it,
because it is almost impossible to be in the house of a priest and not to know
that he is the most irreligious person possible in the world.
Priests are exploiting
religion. They are exploiting people's trust. They are the greatest cheaters in
the world, because to exploit people's trust is the greatest crime. You are
destroying their trust. But they live on that kind of cheating; that is their
whole trade secret.
The bishop was very proud of an
elegant mansion he had constructed as his official residence. One day, a friend
and the bishop were engaged in conversation and the bishop was pursuing a
seemingly atheistic train of thought...
That kind of thinking is
becoming very prevalent in Christian circles: religionless religion, Godless
Christianity - these are being talked about, discussed. After Friedrich
Nietzsche, who declared that God is dead, Christianity has been in a turmoil -
what to do now? They have been trying every possible way to create a
Christianity which does not need God anymore, so that the profession can expand
again.
Now God has become a barrier;
the moment you assert the word 'God', you put people off. So Christian theologians
are discussing, thinking, meditating, how to create a Christianity that does
not need God at all. And it is possible! - because Buddhism is there without
any God, and Jainism is there without any God, so why can't there be a
Christianity without God?
...This bishop was pursuing a
seemingly atheistic train of thought. The friend asked him, "Bishop, do
you believe in God or not? Say it exactly, say it in short. Don't go round and
round. Say simply yes or no - do you believe in God?"
After a long hesitation, the
bishop replied, "Of course I do! Who do you think paid for this
house?"
Now, the house that he has
made, a beautiful mansion, is possible only because people still believe in
God; and because they believe in God, they believe in the bishop. He cannot
publicly declare there is no God. If you drop God, then Jesus is no longer the
Son of God, then the pope is no longer the representative of Jesus, and so on
and so forth.
And they all go down the drain.
It needs a hierarchy: God at the top and the priest at the bottom, the whole
ladder.
And the priest certainly knows
that there is no God. If he was aware that there is a God, he would not have
been a priest in the first place - he would be a Jesus, he would be a Buddha,
but not a priest. He would be a prophet but not a priest. He would bring
something of the unknown into people's lives, but he would not be part of a
status quo, he would not be part of the established church. No man of
understanding, no man who has some religious consciousness and experiences, can
be part of any established church. It has never happened. Buddha has to leave
his fold, Jesus has to leave his fold, Mohammed has to leave his fold - this
has always been so. Whenever a religious man is born, he has to leave his fold,
because the fold is already in the hands of the politicians and the priests,
whose whole interest is in exploiting people.
Anand Moksha has written to me:
During the time of the major
earthquakes in Guatemala in 1976, the Catholic bishop at Lake Atitlan
befriended me and allowed me to stay in his garden for a while.
A few months passed and
after-shock tremors were still common. At that time I discovered that a
beautiful house on a hillside was for rent for very little money. The reason
was that a large boulder ominously overhung the house and people were afraid.
I felt the vibes and it seemed
okay to me - so I rented the place.
When I told the bishop, he reacted
with nervous dismay and swung his arms about, saying, "Aren't you worried
about that rock tumbling down on the house?"
I replied, "If the Lord
wants to take me, he will."
The bishop shrugged his
shoulders and said, "You don't believe that, do you?"
It may be simply, Parijat, that
just because you were born of Christian missionaries it became possible for you
to be here. Christian missionaries, and twenty-five years in India! - that is
too much. In the first place, Christian missionaries and in the second place,
twenty-five years in India... that is enough, more than enough, to convince the
children that their parents are pseudo, that they are talking business, that
they don't believe.
It is not a question of belief
at all.
I have heard a small story:
In a school, a Christian
missionary school, the teacher asked the children, "Who is the greatest
man in history?"
An American boy says,
"Abraham Lincoln."
A Mohammedan boy says,
"Hazrat Mohammed."
A Hindu girl says, "Lord
Krishna."
And so on and so forth... and
finally, the little Jewish boy stands up and says, "Jesus Christ."
The teacher could not believe
her ears - the Jew and saying Jesus Christ? She asked, "Do you really mean
that?"
He said, "That is not the
question. In my heart of hearts I know it is Moses - but business is
business."
To be with Christian
missionaries for twenty-five years, and in India, and seeing what they are
doing, is enough to disillusion you. The whole credit goes to your parents and
their twenty-five years in India. They have brought you here - be thankful to
them.
Question 4:
Beloved master,
I feel that I am a very special person. I
am so special that I want just to be ordinary. Please can you say something
about this?
Anand Sangito, everybody here
thinks exactly the same. And not only here, but everywhere else. Everyone deep
in their heart knows that he is special. This is a joke God plays on people.
When he makes a new man and pushes him down towards the earth, he whispers in
his ear, "You are special. You are incomparable, you are just
unique!"
But this he goes on doing to
everybody and everybody goes on carrying it deep in the heart, although people
don't say it as loudly as you are doing, because they are afraid others may
feel offended. And nobody is going to be convinced, so what is the point of
saying it? If you tell somebody, "I am special," you cannot convince
him because he himself knows that he is special. How can you convince anybody?
Yes, maybe sometimes somebody may be convinced, at least pretend to be
convinced. If he has some work with you, as a bribe he may say, "Yes, you
are special, you are great." But deep down he knows business is business.
A braggart is telling his
friend about his three cars, etcetera, etcetera. When he also mentions that he
has two kept mistresses in New York, but that he has made his ravishingly
beautiful and terribly passionate private secretary pregnant, and must
therefore take his gorgeous blond stenographer with him on his business trip to
Rio de Janeiro to see the carnival, the listener suddenly begins to pant, grabs
at his own necktie, and has a heart attack.
The braggart interrupts his
tale, gets water, pats the victim on the back, etcetera, etcetera, and he asks
solicitously what the matter is. "Can I help it?" the man gasps.
"I am allergic to bullshit."
It is better to keep such
bullshit hidden deep down inside yourself, because people are allergic. But in
a way it is good that you exposed your mind.
If you think you are special
then you are bound to create misery for yourself. If you think that you are
higher than others, wiser than others, then you will attain to a very strong
ego. And the ego is poison, pure poison. And the more egoistic you become, the
more it hurts, because it is a wound. The more egoistic you become, the more
you become unbridged from life. You fall separate from life; you are no longer
in the flow of existence, you have become a rock in the river. You have become
ice-cold, you have lost all warmth, all love. A special person cannot love,
because where are you going to find another special person?
I have heard about a man who
remained unmarried his whole life, and when he was dying, ninety years old,
somebody asked him, "You have remained unmarried your whole life, but you
have never said what the reason was. Now you are dying, at least quench our
curiosity. If there is any secret, now you can tell it, because you are dying;
you will be gone. Even if the secret is known, it can't harm you."
The man said, "Yes, there
is a secret. It is not that I am against marriage, but I was searching for a
perfect woman. I searched and searched, and my whole life slipped by."
The inquirer asked, "But
upon this big earth, so many millions of people, half of them women, couldn't
you find one perfect woman?"
A tear rolled down from the eye
of the dying man. He said, "Yes, I did find one."
The inquirer was absolutely
shocked. He said, "Then what happened? Why didn't you get married?"
And the old man said, "But
the woman was searching for a perfect husband."
Your life will become very
difficult if you live with such ideas. And yes, the ego is so tricky, so
cunning, it can give you, Sangito, this new project: "You are so special,
become just ordinary." But in your ordinariness you will know you are the
most extraordinarily ordinary man. Nobody is more ordinary than you! It will be
the same game, camouflaged.
That's what so-called humble
people go on doing. They say, "I am the most humble man. I am just the
dust on your feet." But they don't mean it! Don't say, "Yes, I know
you are," otherwise they will never be able to forgive you. They are
waiting for you to say, "You are the most humble man I have ever seen, you
are the most pious man I have ever seen." Then they will be satisfied,
contented. It is ego hiding behind humbleness.
You cannot drop the ego in this
way.
You ask, "I feel that I am
a very very special person. I am so special that I want just to be ordinary.
Please can you say something about this?"
No one is special, or, everyone
is special. No one is ordinary, or everyone is ordinary.
Whatsoever you think about
yourself, please think the same about everyone else, and the problem will be
solved. You can choose. If you want the word 'special', you can think you are
special - but then everybody is special. Not only people, but trees, birds,
animals, rocks - the whole existence is special, because you come out of this
existence and you will dissolve into this existence. But if you love the word
'ordinary' - which is a beautiful word, more relaxed - then know that everybody
is ordinary. Then the whole existence is ordinary.
One thing to be remembered:
whatsoever you think about yourself, think the same for everybody else and the
ego will disappear. The ego is the illusion that is created by thinking about
yourself in one way and thinking about others in another. It is double
thinking. If you drop the double thinking, ego dies of its own accord.
Question 5:
Beloved Master,
When I came here I felt god to be very near
- any moment and I would be with him - but as time passes it seems impossible.
He is not around; it is difficult to see him. Why is it so? Please say something
about this.
Vedant Bharti, you must be
carrying a certain image of God in your mind; hence you are missing. And unless
you drop that image you are going to miss. God has no obligation to fulfill
your idea of him. You must be carrying a certain idea that "God looks like
this, behaves like this..." That's why it is becoming impossible: you are
making it impossible.
God can be known only by those
who are capable of dropping all ideas about God. Any idea that you have accumulated
in yourself in your ignorance is a hindrance. Drop all ideas about God and you
will be surprised, you will be shocked, you will not be able to believe your
eyes... because only God is! Then you will never ask, "Where is God?"
You will ask, "Is there any place where God is not?"
Then in the very ordinariness
of things you will see something tremendously extraordinary. Then ordinary
pebbles are transformed into diamonds. Then ordinary humanity is no longer
ordinary - then something luminous is in everybody's heart.
Then man comes closer to the
divine, and the divine comes closer to man; the human and the divine disappear
into each other, the world and God disappear into each other.
Then you are not searching for
a God who is separate and high and far away, living in the seventh heaven; then
he lives in your neighborhood as your neighbor. Then he is human, he is animal,
he is vegetable, he is mineral... he is all.
And when you can see that he
surrounds you, not as a person but as a presence, then only does your inquiry
come to a fulfillment. God is not hiding from you but you are keeping your eyes
closed because of so many prejudices. Somebody has a Hindu idea of God, and
somebody has a Christian idea of God, and somebody else a Mohammedan idea of
God. Now, God is neither Mohammedan, nor Christian, nor Hindu, so all these
people who are carrying these ideas are bound to go on stumbling in darkness
and more darkness. From darkness to darkness will be their journey, from death
to death they will move. They will never know the light.
A Hindu cannot know God, a
Mohammedan cannot know God. First you will have to cleanse your mind completely
of all Hinduism, all Mohammedanism, all Buddhism.
When you are utterly
thoughtless, just alert, aware, watchful, then God explodes. And he explodes
all over the place.
Vedant Bharti, you say,
"When I came here I felt God to be very near." That was your
imagination.
"...Any moment and I would
be with him." That was your wish.
"...But as time passes it
seems impossible" - because no imagination can ever become real. No dream
of yours can ever be fulfilled. Reality has to be discovered, not imagined.
Now you say, "He is not
around; it is difficult to see him."
Only he is around. It is
difficult to see him because your eyes are too burdened with your own
prejudices, concepts, systems of thought. Be a little more childlike, be a
little more innocent. God comes only when the heart is innocent. God comes only
when you are utterly empty of all ideas. He is always ready to come, he is
standing at the door, but you cannot hear because your mind is so full of
turmoil, full of thoughts, millions of thoughts clamoring around. Your mind is
so noisy you cannot hear the silent knock on the door.
Be silent, be innocent. God is.
Only God is.