Osho –
Dhammapada: The Way of The Buddha (Volume 1)
Chapter 5. Wakefulness
is life
Wakefulness is the way to life.
The fool sleeps
As if he were already dead,
But the master is awake
And he lives forever.
He watches.
He is clear.
How happy he is!
For he sees that wakefulness is life.
How happy he is,
Following the path of the awakened.
With great perseverance
He meditates, seeking
Freedom and happiness.
So awake, reflect, watch.
Work with care and attention.
Live in the way
And the light will grow in you.
By watching and working
The master makes for himself an island
Which the flood cannot overwhelm.
One of the most important
things to be understood about man is that man is asleep.
Even while he thinks he is
awake, he is not. His wakefulness is very fragile; his wakefulness is so tiny
it doesn't matter at all. His wakefulness is only a beautiful name, but utterly
empty.
You sleep in the night, you
sleep in the day; from birth to death you go on changing your patterns of
sleep, but you never really awake. Just by opening the eyes don't befool
yourself that you are awake. Unless the inner eyes open, unless your inside
becomes full of light, unless you can see yourself, who you are, don't think
that you are awake.
That is the greatest illusion
man lives in. And once you accept that you are already awake, then there is no
question of making any effort to be awake.
The first thing to sink deep in
your heart is that you are asleep, utterly asleep. You are dreaming, day in,
day out. You are dreaming sometimes with open eyes and sometimes with closed
eyes, but you are dreaming, you are a dream. You are not yet a reality.
And, of course, in a dream
whatsoever you do is meaningless, whatsoever you think is pointless, whatsoever
you project remains part of your dreams and never allows you to see that which
is. Hence Buddha's insistence... and not only Gautama the Buddha but all the
buddhas have insisted on only one thing: Awake! Continuously, for centuries,
their whole teaching can be contained in a single word: Be awake!
And they have been devising
methods, strategies, they have been creating contexts and spaces, and energy
fields in which you can be shocked into awareness. Yes, unless you are shocked,
shaken to your very foundations, you will not awaken. The sleep has been so
long, it has reached to the very core of your being; you are soaked in it. Each
cell of your body and each fiber of your mind has become full of sleep. It is
not a small phenomenon. Hence great effort is needed to be alert, to be
attentive, to be watchful, to become a witness.
If on any one single theme all
the buddhas of the world agree, this is the theme: that man as he is is asleep,
and man as he should be should be awake. Wakefulness is the goal, and
wakefulness is the taste of all their teachings. Zarathustra, Lao Tzu, Jesus,
Buddha, Bahauddin, Kabir, Nanak - all the awakened ones have been teaching one
single theme, in different languages, in different metaphors, but their song is
the same.
Just as the sea tastes of salt
- whether the sea is tasted from the north or from the east or from the west,
the sea always tastes of salt - the taste of buddhahood is wakefulness.
But you will not make any
effort if you go on believing that you are already awake; then there is no
question of making any effort. Why bother? And you have created religions,
gods, prayers, rituals, out of your dreams - your gods are as much part of your
dreams as anything else. Your politics is part of your dreams, your religions
are part of your dreams, your poetry, your painting, your art - whatsoever you
do, because you are asleep, you make it according to your own state of mind.
The Bible says God created man
in his own image - the truth seems to be just the opposite: man has created God
in his own image. Your gods are false because you are false. Your religion is
pseudo because you are pseudo. Your scriptures cannot have any significance
because you don't have any significance.
Two priest are playing golf.
The younger one misses an easy putt and says, "Shit!" The older one
berates him for this, saying that if he continues to use profanity like that
God will certainly blast him with a thunderbolt. They keep playing and the
younger priest misses another putt, and again says, "Shit!"
The skies suddenly open: a
thunderbolt flashes out, and strikes the older priest dead.
There is a pause, and the
heavenly voice is heard saying in accents of thunder, "Shit!"
Your gods cannot be different
from you. Who will create them? Who will give them shape and color and form?
You create them, you sculpt them; they have eyes like you, noses like you - and
minds like you! The Old Testament God says, "I am a very jealous God!"
Now who has created this God who is jealous? God cannot be jealous. And if God
is jealous, then what is wrong in being jealous? If even God is jealous, why
should you be thought to be doing something wrong when you are jealous? Then
jealousy is divine.
The Old Testament God says,
"I am a very angry God! If you don't follow my commandments, I will
destroy you. You will be thrown into hellfire for eternity. And because I am
very jealous," the God says, "don't worship anybody else. I cannot
tolerate it."
Who created such a God? It must
be out of our own jealousy, out of our own anger, that we have created this
image.
A Jew who has a long run of bad
luck goes out into the woods and lifts his voice in prayer and recrimination.
"Oh, God," he asks heaven tearfully, "haven't I always been a
good Jew? Haven't I always given charity, even to those damn goyim? Didn't I
bring up my family decent? Never drink, swear, gamble; no bad women, nothing!
Why do you do this to me God? Why? Why?"
A dark cloud suddenly appears
overhead, and a tremendous voice replies, "You piss me off!"
The God certainly cannot be
different from you. It is your projection, it is your shadow.
It echoes you and nobody else.
That's why there are so many gods in the world. The Hindus have a certain idea
about God - the Hindu idea - it reflects the Hindu mind.
If you go back into Hindu
scriptures you will be surprised. You will not be able to believe what kind of
gods Hindus have created - very sexual. Adultery is very common amongst Hindu
gods, and not only do they play their games of adultery in the Hindu paradise,
they can't even leave the earth alone; they come to the earth too, to rape
women, to seduce simple women. They don't even leave the wives of the great
seers alone. And because they have infinite power they can even appear as the
husbands, they can look like the husbands. And the women have no idea who is
hiding behind the facade.
Who has created these gods? -
it must have been deep down a very sexual mind.
And the same is the case with
all other gods of all other religions. It is because of this that Buddha never
talked about God. He said: What is the point of talking about God to people who
are asleep? They will listen in their sleep. They will dream about whatsoever
is said to them, and they will create their own gods - which will be utterly
false, utterly impotent, utterly meaningless. It is better not to have such
gods.
That's why Buddha is not
interested in talking about gods. His whole interest is in waking you up.
It is said about a Buddhist
enlightened master who was sitting by the side of the river one evening,
enjoying the sound of the water, the sound of the wind passing through the
trees.... A man came and asked him, "Can you tell me in a single word the
essence of your religion?"
The master remained silent,
utterly silent, as if he had not heard the question. The questioner said,
"Are you deaf or something?"
The master said, "I have
heard your question, and I have answered it too! Silence is the answer. I
remained silent - that pause, that interval, was my answer."
The man said, "I cannot
understand such a mysterious answer. Can't you be a little more clear?"
So the master wrote on the sand
"meditation," in small letters with his finger. The man said, "I
can read now. It is a little better than at first. At least I have got a word
to ponder over. But can't you make it a little more clear?"
The master wrote again "Meditation." Of course this time he
wrote in bigger letters.
The man was feeling a little
embarrassed, puzzled, offended, angry. He said, "Again you write
meditation? Can't you be a little clear for me?"
And the master wrote in very
big letters, capital letters, "M E D I T A T I O N."
The man said, "You seem to
be mad."
The master said, "I have
already come down very much. The first answer was the right answer, the second
was not so right, the third even more wrong, the fourth has gone very
wrong" - because when you write "MEDITATION" with capital
letters you have made a god out of it.
That's why the word 'God' is
written with capital 'G'. Whenever you want to make something supreme,
ultimate, you write it with a capital letter.
The master said, "I have
already committed a sin." He erased all those words he had written, and he
said, "Please listen to my first answer - only then I am true."
Silence is the space in which
one awakens, and the noisy mind is the space in which one remains asleep. If your
mind continues chattering, you are asleep. Sitting silently, if the mind
disappears and you can hear the chattering birds and no mind inside, a
silence... this whistle of the bird, the chirping, and no mind functioning in
your head, utter silence... then awareness wells up in you. It does not come
from the outside, it arises in you, it grows in you. Otherwise remember: you
are asleep.
A husband and wife were asleep.
About 3 AM the wife dreamt of secretly meeting another man. Then she dreamt she
saw her husband coming.
In her sleep she shrieked,
"Heavens, my husband!"
Her husband, waking suddenly,
leapt out of the window.
And remember, it is not a
laughing matter; it is the reality, it is how you are living. It is how man
exists in his ordinary state.
A wife tries to win back her
husband's love, on the advice of a woman friend, by bringing him his slippers
and pipe when he comes home late one night, giving him a tall drink, cuddling
up in his lap dressed only in a silk dressing gown, and ending with the
murmured offer, "Let's go upstairs, darling!"
"I might as well,"
says her bemused husband, "I'll get hell when I get home anyway!"
We go on living absolutely
inattentive to what is happening around us. Yes, we have become very efficient
in doing things. What we are doing, we have become so efficient in doing that
we don't need any awareness to do it. It has become mechanical, automatic. We
function like robots. We are not men yet; we are machines.
That's what George Gurdjieff
used to say again and again, that man as he exists is a machine. He offended
many people, because nobody likes to be called a machine.
Machines like to be called
gods; then they feel very happy, puffed up. Gurdjieff used to call people
machines, and he was right. If you watch yourself you will know how
mechanically you behave.
The Russian psychologist
Pavlov, and the American psychologist Skinner, are ninety- nine point nine
percent right about man: they believe that man is a beautiful machine, that's
all. There is no soul in him. I say ninety-nine point nine percent they are
right; they only miss by a very small margin. In that small margin are the
buddhas, the awakened ones. But they can be forgiven, because Pavlov never came
across a buddha - he came across millions of people like you.
Skinner has been studying men
and rats and finds no difference. Rats are simple beings, that's all; man is a
little more complicated. Man is a highly sophisticated machine, rats are simple
machines. It is easier to study rats; that's why psychologists go on studying
rats. They study rats and they conclude about man - and their conclusions are
almost right. I say "almost," mind you, because that point one
percent is the most important phenomenon that has happened: a Buddha, a Jesus,
a Mohammed. These few awakened people are the real men, but where can B.F.
Skinner find a buddha? Certainly not in America.
I have heard:
A man asked a rabbi, "Why
didn't Jesus choose to be born in twentieth-century America?"
The rabbi shrugged his
shoulders and said, "In America? It would have been impossible. Where can
you find a virgin, firstly? And secondly, where will you find three wise
men?"
And without a virgin mother and
three wise men, how can Jesus be born?
I have heard:
In a church, the priest asked
the audience, "Please stand up, all the women who are virgins!"
Just one woman with a small
baby girl stood up. Certainly she was a mother, and the priest said, "Do
you think yourself to be a virgin? You are a mother!"
She said, "Yes, I am - but
this girl is a virgin, and she cannot stand on her own."
Where is B.F. Skinner going to
find a buddha? And even if he can find a buddha, his preconceived prejudices,
ideas, will not allow him to see. He will go on seeing his rats.
He cannot understand anything
that rats cannot do. Now, rats don't meditate, rats don't become enlightened.
And his conception of man is only a magnified form of a rat. And still I say
that he is right about the greater majority of people; his conclusions are not
wrong. And buddhas will agree with him about the so-called normal humanity: the
normal humanity is utterly asleep. Even animals are not so asleep.
Have you seen a deer in the
jungle - how alert he looks, how watchfully he walks?
Have you seen a bird sitting on
the tree - how intelligently he goes on watching what is happening all around?
You move towards the bird - there is a certain space he allows; beyond that,
one step more, and he flies away. He has a certain alertness about his territory.
If somebody enters into that territory then it is dangerous.
If you look around you will be
surprised: man seems to be the most asleep animal on the earth.
A woman buys a parrot at an
auction of the furnishings of a fancy whorehouse, and keeps the parrot's cage
covered for two weeks to make it forget its profane vocabulary.
When the cage is finally
uncovered, the parrot looks around and remarks, "Awrrk! New house. New
madam." When the woman's daughters come in, he adds, "Awrrk! New
girls."
When her husband comes home
that night, the parrot says, "Awrrk! Awrrk! Same old customers. Hello,
Joe!"
Man is in a very fallen state.
In fact, that is the meaning of the Christian parable of the fall of Adam, his
expulsion. But why were Adam and Eve expelled from paradise? They were expelled
because they had eaten the fruit of knowledge. They were expelled because they
had become minds, and they had lost their consciousness. If you become a mind
you lose consciousness - mind means sleep, mind means noise, mind means
mechanicalness.
If you become a mind you lose
consciousness. Hence, the whole work that has to be done is: how to become
consciousness again and lose the mind. You have to throw out of your system all
that you have gathered as knowledge. It is knowledge that keeps you asleep;
hence, the more knowledgeable a person is, the more asleep.
That has been my own
observation too. Innocent villagers are far more alert and awake than the
professors in the universities and the pundits in the temples. The pundits are
nothing but parrots; the academicians in the universities are full of nothing
but holy cow dung, full of absolutely meaningless noise - just minds and no
consciousness.
People who work with nature -
farmers, gardeners, woodcutters, carpenters, painters - they are far more alert
than the people that function in the universities as deans and vice-chancellors
and chancellors. Because when you work with nature, nature is alert, trees are
alert; their form of alertness is certainly different, but they are very alert.
Now there are scientific proofs
of their alertness. If the woodcutter comes with an axe in his hand and with
the deliberate desire to cut the tree, all the trees that see him coming
tremble. Now there are scientific proofs about it; I am not talking poetry, I
am talking science when I say this. Now there are instruments to measure
whether the tree is happy or unhappy, afraid or unafraid, sad or ecstatic. When
the woodcutter comes, all the trees that see him start trembling. They become
aware that death is close by. And the woodcutter has not cut any tree yet -
just his coming...
And one thing more, far more
strange: if the woodcutter is simply passing by there with no deliberate idea
to cut a tree, then no tree becomes afraid. It is the same woodcutter, with the
same axe. It seems that his intention to cut a tree affects the trees. It means
that his intention is being understood; it means the very vibe is being decoded
by the trees.
And one more significant fact
has been observed scientifically: that if you go into the forest and kill an
animal, it is not only the animal kingdom around that becomes shaken, but trees
also. If you kill a deer, all the deer that are around feel the vibe of murder,
become sad; a great trembling arises in them. Suddenly they are afraid for no
particular reason at all. They may not have seen the deer being killed, but
somehow, in a subtle way, they are affected - instinctively, intuitively. But
it is not only the deer which are affected - the trees are affected, the
parrots are affected, the tigers are affected, the eagles are affected, the
grass leaves are affected. Murder has happened, destruction has happened, death
has happened - everything that is around is affected.
Man seems to be the most
asleep...
These sutras of Buddha have to
be meditated on deeply, imbibed, followed.
Wakefulness is the way to life.
You are alive only in the
proportion that you are aware. Awareness is the difference between death and
life. You are not alive just because you are breathing, you are not alive just
because your heart is beating. Physiologically you can be kept alive in a
hospital, without any consciousness. Your heart will go on beating and you will
be able to breathe. You can be kept in such a mechanical arrangement that you
will remain alive for years - in the sense of breathing and the heart beating
and the blood circulating. There are now many people around the world in
advanced countries who are just vegetating in the hospitals, because advanced
technology has made it possible for your death to be postponed indefinitely -
for years, for centuries, you can be kept alive. If this is life, then you can
be kept alive. But this is not life at all. Just to vegetate is not life.
Buddhas have a different
definition. Their definition consists of awareness. They don't say you are
alive because you can breathe, they don't say you are alive because your blood
circulates; they say you are alive if you are awake. So except for the awakened
ones nobody is really alive. You are corpses - walking, talking, doing things -
you are robots.
Wakefulness is the way to life,
says Buddha. Become more wakeful and you will become more alive. And life is
God - there is no other God. Hence Buddha talks about life and awareness. Life
is the goal and awareness is the methodology, the technique to attain it.
The fool sleeps...
And all are asleep, so all are
foolish. Don't feel offended. The facts have to be stated as they are. You
function in sleep; that's why you go on stumbling, you go on doing things you
don't want to do. You go on doing things you have decided not to do. You go on
doing things you know are not right to do, and you don't do things which you
know are right.
How is this possible? Why can't
you walk straight? Why do you go on getting trapped into bypaths? Why do you go
on going astray?
A young man with a fine voice
is asked to take part in a pageant play, though he tries to beg off, saying he
always gets embarrassed under such circumstances. He is assured it will be very
simple, and he will have only one line to say: "I come to snatch a kiss,
and dart into the fray. Hark! I hear a pistol shot..." and then stride
offstage.
At the performance he comes
onstage, very embarrassed already by the tight-fitting colonial knee-breeches
he has been made to put on at the last moment, and becomes completely unstrung
at the sight of the beautiful heroine lying back on a garden seat, awaiting
him, in a white gown. He clears his throat and announces: "I come to kiss
your snatch - no! - snatch a kiss, and fart into the dray - I mean, dart into
the fray! Hark! - I hear a shistol pot - no! - a shostil pit, a pistil shit.
Oh, bat shit, rat shit, shit on you all! I never wanted to be in this damned
play anyhow!"
This is what is happening.
Watch your life: everything that you go on doing is so confused and so
confusing. You don't have any clarity, you don't have any perceptiveness. You
are not alert. You can't see! You can't hear! Certainly, you have ears so you
can hear, but there is nobody inside to understand it. Certainly you have eyes
so you can see, but there is nobody present inside. So your eyes go on seeing
and your ears go on listening, but nothing is understood.
If you really had eyes you
would see God everywhere. And if you could hear you would hear the celestial
music, you would hear the harmony of existence.
And on each step you stumble,
on each step you commit something wrong. And still you go on believing that you
are aware. Drop that idea completely. Dropping it is a great leap, a great
step, because once you drop the idea that "I am aware" you will start
seeking and searching for ways and means to be aware. So the first thing to
sink into you is that you are asleep, utterly asleep.
Modern psychology has
discovered a few things which are significant; although they have been
discovered only intellectually, still it is a good beginning. If intellectually
they have been discovered, then sooner or later existentially also they will be
experienced.
Freud is a great pioneer; of
course, not a buddha, but still a man of great significance, because he was the
first to make the idea accepted by the larger part of humanity that man has a
great unconscious hidden in him. The conscious mind is only one tenth, and the
unconscious mind is nine times bigger than the conscious.
Then his disciple, Jung, went a
little further, a little deeper, and discovered the collective unconscious.
Behind the individual unconscious there is a collective unconscious. Now
somebody is needed to discover one thing more which is there, and I hope...
Sooner or later the psychological investigations that are going on, on both
sides of the Iron Curtain, are bound to discover it - the cosmic unconscious.
Buddhas have talked about it.
So we can say: the conscious
mind, a very fragile thing, a very small part of your being.
Behind the conscious is the
subconscious mind - vague. You can hear its whispering but you cannot figure it
out. It is always there, behind the conscious, pulling its strings.
Third: the unconscious mind
which you come across only in dreams or when you take drugs. Then, the collective
unconscious mind. You come across it only when you go into a very deep inquiry
into your unconscious mind; then you come across the collective unconscious.
And if you go still further, deeper, you will come to the cosmic unconscious.
The cosmic unconscious is
nature. The collective unconscious is the whole of humanity that has lived up
to now, it is part of you. The unconscious is your individual unconscious that
the society has repressed in you, that has not been allowed expression.
Hence it comes by the back door
in the night, in your dreams. And the conscious mind... I will call it the
so-called conscious mind because it is only so-called. It is so tiny, just a
flicker, but even if it is just a flicker it is important because it has the
seed; the seeds are always small. It has great potential.
Now a totally new dimension is
opening up. Just as Freud opened the dimension below the conscious, Sri
Aurobindo opened the dimension above the conscious. Freud and Sri Aurobindo are
the two most important people of this age. Both are intellectuals, neither of
them is an awakened person, but both have done a great service to humanity.
Intellectually they have made
us aware that we are not so small as we appear from the surface, that the
surface is hiding great depths and heights.
Freud went into the depths, Sri
Aurobindo tried to penetrate into the heights. Above our so-called conscious
mind is the real conscious mind; that is attained only through meditation. When
your ordinary conscious mind is added to meditation, when the ordinary
conscious mind is plus meditation, it becomes the real conscious mind.
Beyond the real conscious mind
is the superconscious mind.
When you are meditating you
have only glimpses. Meditation is a groping in the dark.
Yes, a few windows open up, but
you fall back again and again. Superconscious mind means samadhi - you have
attained a crystal-clear perceptiveness, you have attained an integrated
awareness. Now you cannot fall below it; it is yours. Even in sleep it will
remain with you.
Beyond the superconscious is
the collective superconscious; the collective superconscious is what is known
as "gods" in religions. And beyond the collective superconscious is
the cosmic superconscious which even goes beyond gods. Buddha calls it nirvana,
Mahavira calls it kaivalya, Hindu mystics have called it moksha; you can call
it the truth.
These are the nine states of
your being, and you are just living in a small corner of your being - the tiny
conscious mind; as if somebody has a palace and has completely forgotten about
the palace and has started living on the porch - and thinks this is all.
Freud and Sri Aurobindo are
both great intellectual giants, pioneers, philosophers, but both are doing
great guesswork. Instead of teaching students the philosophy of Bertrand
Russell, Alfred North Whitehead, Martin Heidegger, Jean-Paul Sartre, it would
be far better if people were taught more about Sri Aurobindo, because he is the
greatest philosopher of this age. But he is completely neglected, ignored by the
academic world - for a certain reason.
The reason is, even to read Sri
Aurobindo will make you feel that you are unaware; and he himself is not a
buddha yet, but still he will create a very embarrassing situation for you. If
he is right, then what are you doing? Then why are you not exploring the
heights of your being?
Freud was accepted with great
resistance, but finally he was accepted. Sri Aurobindo is not even accepted
yet. In fact there is not even any opposition to him; he is simply ignored. And
the reason is clear. Freud talks about something below you - that is not so
embarrassing; you can feel good knowing that you are conscious, and below your
consciousness there is subconsciousness and unconsciousness and collective
unconsciousness. But those states are all below you; you are at the top, you
can feel very good. But if you study Sri Aurobindo, you will feel embarrassed,
offended, because there are higher states than you - and man's ego never wants
to accept that there is anything higher than him. Man wants to believe that he
is the highest pinnacle, the climax, the Gourishankar, the Everest - that there
is nothing higher than him...
That's why the modern man wants
to deny God, because to accept God means you have to accept something higher
than you. And the modern ego is so puffed up that the modern mind says there is
no God and there is no beyond and there is no afterlife. And it feels very good
- denying your own kingdom, denying your own heights, you feel very good. Look
at the foolishness of it.
Buddha is right. He says:
The fool sleeps
As if he were already dead,
But the master is awake
And he lives forever.
Awareness is eternal, it knows
no death. Only unawareness dies. So if you remain unconscious, asleep, you will
have to die again. If you want to get rid of this whole misery of being born
and dying again and again, if you want to get rid of the wheel of birth and
death, you will have to become absolutely alert. You will have to reach higher
and higher into consciousness.
And these things are not to be
accepted on intellectual grounds; these things have to become experiential,
these things have to become existential. I am not telling you to be convinced
philosophically, because philosophical conviction brings nothing, no harvest.
The real harvest comes only
when you make great effort to wake yourself up.
But these intellectual maps can
create a desire, a longing in you; can make you aware of the potential, of the
possible; can make you aware that you are not what you appear to be - you are
far more.
The fool sleeps
As if he were already dead,
But the master is
Awake and he lives forever.
He watches. He is clear.
Simple and beautiful
statements. Truth is always simple and always beautiful. Just to see the
simplicity of these two statements... but how much they contain - worlds within
worlds, infinite worlds. He watches. He is clear.
The only thing that has to be
learned is watchfulness. Watch! Watch every act that you do. Watch every
thought that passes in your mind. Watch every desire that takes possession of
you. Watch even small gestures - walking, talking, eating, taking a bath.
Go on watching everything. Let
everything become an opportunity to watch.
Don't eat mechanically, don't
just go on stuffing yourself - be very watchful. Chew well and watchfully... and
you will be surprised how much you have been missing up to now, because each
bite will give you tremendous satisfaction; if you eat watchfully, it will
become more tasteful. Even ordinary food tastes if you are watchful; and if you
are not watchful, you can eat the most tasteful food but there will be no taste
in it, because there is nobody to watch. You simply go on stuffing yourself.
Eat slowly, watchfully; each
bite has to be chewed, tasted. Smell, touch, feel the breeze and the sunrays.
Look at the moon and become just a silent pool of watchfulness, and the moon
will be reflected in you with tremendous beauty. Move in life remaining
continuously watchful.
Again and again you will
forget. Don't become miserable because of that; it is natural.
For millions of lives you have
never tried watchfulness, so it is simple, natural, that you go on forgetting
again and again. But the moment you remember, again watch.
Remember one thing: when you
remember that you have forgotten watching, don't become repentful, don't
repent; otherwise, again you are wasting time. Don't feel miserable: "I
missed again." Don't start feeling, "I am a sinner." Don't start
condemning yourself, because this is a sheer waste of time. Never repent for
the past! Live in the moment. If you had forgotten, so what? It was natural -
it has become a habit, and habits die hard. And these are not habits imbibed in
one life; these are habits imbibed in millions of lives. So if you can remain
watchful even for a few moments, feel thankful to God - feel thankful. Even
those few moments are more than expected.
He watches. He is clear.
And when you watch, a clarity
arises. Why does clarity arise out of watchfulness?
Because the more watchful you
become, the more all your hastiness slows down. You become more graceful. As
you watch, your chattering mind chatters less, because the energy that was
becoming chattering is turning and becoming watchfulness - it is the same
energy! Now more and more energy will be transformed into watchfulness and the
mind will not get its nourishment. Thoughts will start becoming thinner, they
will start losing weight. Slowly slowly, they will start dying. And as thoughts
start dying, clarity arises. Now your mind becomes a mirror.
How happy he is! And when one is
clear, one is blissful. It is confusion that is the root cause of misery; it is
clarity that is the foundation of blissfulness.
How happy he is!
For he sees that wakefulness is life.
And now he knows there is no
death, because wakefulness can never be destroyed.
When death comes, you will
watch it too. You will die watching; watching will not die.
Your body will disappear, dust
unto dust, but your watchfulness will remain; it will become part of the cosmic
whole. It will become cosmic consciousness.
In these moments the seers of
the Upanishads declare, "Aham brahmasmi! - I am the cosmic consciousness!"
It is in such spaces that al-Hillaj Mansoor announced, "Ana'l haq! - I am
the truth!"
These are the heights which are
your birthright. If you are not getting them, only you are responsible and
nobody else.
How happy he is! For he sees that
wakefulness is life.
How happy he is,
Following the path of the awakened.
With great perseverance
He meditates, seeking
Freedom and happiness.
Listen to these words very
attentively: with
great perseverance... Unless you bring total effort to waking
yourself up it is not going to happen. Partial efforts are futile. You cannot
be just so-so, you cannot be just lukewarm. It is not going to help.
Lukewarm water cannot
evaporate, and lukewarm efforts to be alert are bound to fail.
Transformation happens only
when you put your total energy into it. When you are boiling at a hundred
degrees heat, then you evaporate, then the alchemical change happens. Then you
start rising up.
Have you not watched? - water
flows downwards, but vapor rises upwards. Exactly the same happens:
unconsciousness goes downwards, consciousness goes upwards.
And one thing more: upwards is
synonymous with inwards, and downwards is synonymous with outwards.
Consciousness goes inwards, unconsciousness goes outwards. Unconsciousness
makes you interested in others - things, people, but it is always the others.
Unconsciousness keeps you completely in darkness; your eyes go on being focused
on others. It creates a kind of exteriority, it makes you extroverts.
Consciousness creates
interiority, it makes you introverts; it takes you inward, deeper and deeper.
And deeper and deeper also
means higher and higher; they grow simultaneously, just as a tree grows. You
only see it going upwards, you don't see the roots going downwards. But first
the roots have to go downwards, only then can the tree go upwards. If a tree
wants to reach the sky, then it will have to send roots to the very bottom, to
the lowest depths possible. The tree grows simultaneously in both directions.
In exactly the same way
consciousness grows upwards... downwards, it sends its roots into your being.
I talked about nine states of
consciousness. Your branches of consciousness will go upwards, from conscious -
so-called conscious - to real conscious, from real conscious to superconscious,
from superconscious to collective conscious, from collective conscious to
cosmic conscious. And your roots will be growing from so-called conscious to
subconscious, from subconscious to unconscious, from unconscious to collective
unconscious, from collective unconscious to cosmic unconscious. The moment your
roots reach nature, your flowers start blooming in God. Hence nature and God
are not divided - in the awakened one they are bridged.
The really awakened one is not
against nature, cannot be; he is all for nature. In fact, he helps you to go
both ways - on one side into nature, on the other side into God. That's my
effort here. I would like you to be natural, so natural that your roots go to
the deepest core of your being - because that is the only way to help you grow
upwards.
Roots have to be strongly in
the soil, so strong that they can support a high-rising cedar of Lebanon. If it
has to go hundreds of feet upwards, it will need great roots. Because of this I
am being misunderstood all over this country particularly, and all over the
world in general.
Roots have to reach to the sex
energy, because that is the lowest, the bottom in you; only then can your
flowers bloom in superconsciousness, in samadhi. The lotus can bloom only if it
is rooted in the mud deep down in the lake. This is possible only with great
perseverance. Man as he is is very lazy; because he is asleep he is lazy.
This story is of a husband and
wife who agree that whoever speaks first will have to close the street door
which has accidentally been left open. Robbers find the open door, enter, and
seeing the silent couple making no move, eat the food on the table, take all
the valuables, and finally rape the wife, and propose to shave off the
husband's beard.
"Alright," the
husband cries at that point, "I'll close the goddamn door!"
People are really lazy, utterly
lazy. Laziness is part of sleep. Hence, perseverance, effort, continuous
effort, constant effort, will be needed. You will fall back again and again.
You are in the state of a
drunkard; hence falling backward is forgivable. But the moment you recognize,
whenever a ray of light happens and you remember, put your total energy into it
again. Don't remain a fool, don't remain asleep, don't remain a drunkard.
There were these three
drunkards walking down the street. One was carrying a loaf of bread, the other
a jug of wine and the third a car door. As they were walking along, a policeman
stopped them and asked, "Where are you going?"
"On a picnic,"
replied the man with the bread.
"On a picnic?" said
the cop. "The bread I can understand - you can eat it when you get hungry;
the wine you can drink when you get thirsty. But why the car door? - that I
can't understand."
"Well," said the man
with the door, "if it gets too cold I can roll up the window."
You will have to come out of
many layers of drunkenness. Greed is a state of drunkenness, and everybody is
greedy - greedy for more. Mind continuously asks for more and more, and the
demand is never-ending. If you are after money, more money.
If you are after political
power, more power. If you are after prestige, more prestige. If you are
interested in becoming humble, then more humbleness, because you have to be the
most humble man in the world. If you are after renunciation, then more and more
renunciation. There is never any end to this constant demand of the mind -
more...
Greed is a drunkenness, it is a
sleep. So is anger. Have you not observed that in anger you can do things which
you cannot do ordinarily? You say things for which you repent later on. And you
cannot believe later on that you uttered such nonsense, that you are capable of
uttering such nonsense. What happens when you are angry? You are in a state of
drunkenness.
Become more watchful and anger
will be less and greed will be less and jealousy will be less.
I don't say to you: Don't be
angry, because that's what has been said to you down the ages. Your so-called
saints have been telling you, "Don't be angry!" so you have learned
ways of repressing anger. But the more you repress anger, the bigger the
unconscious you are creating in yourself. You are throwing things into the
basement, and then you will be afraid to enter into the basement, because all
these things - anger and greed and sex - are there. You know! You have been
throwing them there. All kinds of rubbish are there, and dangerous, poisonous.
You will not be ready to go in.
That's why people don't want to
go in, because going in means encountering all these things. And nobody wants
to encounter these things; one wants to avoid them. For thousands of years you
have been told to repress, and because of repression you have become more and
more unconscious. I cannot say to you repress. I would like to say to you just
the opposite: don't repress - watch, be alert. When anger arises, sit down in
your room, close your doors and watch it.
You know only two ways: either
to be angry, be violent, destructive, or to repress it.
You don't know the third way,
and the third way is the way of the buddhas: neither indulge nor repress -
watch. Indulgence creates habit. If you become angry today and again tomorrow,
and the day after tomorrow again, you are creating a habit; you are
conditioning yourself to be more and more angry.
So indulgence cannot take you
out of it. That's where the modern growth movement is stuck. Encounter groups,
primal therapy, gestalt, bioenergetics... and so many beautiful things are
happening in the world, but they are stuck at a certain point. Their problem
is: they teach expression - and it is good, it is far better than repression.
If there is only this choice, repress or express, then I would suggest express.
But this is not the real choice; there is a third alternative far more
important than both these. If you express, you become habitual; you learn by
doing it again and again - you can't get out of it.
In this commune there are at
least fifty therapy groups running, for a certain reason. It is just to balance
the thousands of years of repression; it is just to balance. It is just to
bring to light all that you have repressed as Christians, Hindus, Mohammedans,
Jainas, Buddhists. It is just to undo the centuries' old harm that has been
done to you.
But remember, these groups are
not the end; they only prepare you for meditation.
They are not the goal; they are
just simple means to undo the wrong of the past. Once you have thrown out of
your system all that you have been repressing all along, I have to lead you
into watchfulness. Now it will be easier to watch.
But you are not to become a
group-addicted person, you are not to become a groupie.
There are people now in the
world who are group-addicted; they go from one group to another. One encounter
finishes - then another marathon, then gestalt, then this and that... After
just a few days the itch arises - because where to express? In the normal
society they cannot express, they have to repress.
So the group becomes just an
outlet. The normal society forces you to repress, the group helps you to
express but you are not really growing. Again you will be back in the normal
society, again repressing. And if you express in the normal society, you will
be getting into far more dangerous situations. You may murder somebody - you
have so much anger. You will be in jail, imprisoned forever. Or if you go on
fighting with everybody - if you slap the boss in the office, if you beat your
wife, your children, your husband - then your whole life will become a chaos,
it will be impossible to live it. So after a few days of accumulation you need
another encounter. A few days of encountering and you feel unburdened; back in
society you will be burdened again.
This is not going to help. This
is a temporary relief. You can scream to your heart's desire in a primal
therapy group, but if you start screaming on the road, then you will be taken
to the police station. You can scream in a group context - it is allowed,
helped, provoked; you are persuaded to scream, because since your childhood you
have been repressing it. It has become a wound; it needs to be opened. If the
pus oozes out and the wound is left open to the winds and to the sun and to the
rain, it will heal itself, because you have a healing energy; it is inbuilt.
But back in the society again... how long can you remain in a primal therapy
group? Back in the same old society again, you will have to repress; you cannot
go on screaming there.
Then the scream gathers, then
the steam gathers. Then one day you have to go into the group again. This is a
temporary relief; good as far as it goes, but it cannot make you a buddha.
That's where this commune is different from institutes like Esalen. They end
with groups - we begin with groups. Where they end, that's exactly the point
from where we begin.
And it is not a coincidence
that thousands of therapists have become interested in my work. They have come
here... Among my sannyasins, the greatest group from any profession is that of
psychotherapists. A great need is felt now all over the world that encounter,
primal therapy, gestalt, can help a little bit to unburden people, but they
cannot help to make them buddhas - they cannot help them to become awakened.
Indulgence creates habit,
repression gathers the poison within. In indulgence you throw the poison on
others, but they are not going to remain silent - they will throw it back. It
becomes a match: you throw your anger on others, they throw their anger on you
- but nobody is helped, everybody is harmed and hurt.
And if you repress... Because
of this futility of indulgence, priests invented repression.
It keeps you out of danger.
Repression keeps you a good citizen, a gentleman. It keeps you out of the
dangers of getting caught by the law, getting caught into enmity; it keeps you
smooth. Repression helps you to become a better social person, that's true. But
it makes you a wound inside, just a wound, and the pus goes on gathering
inside. Outside it functions as a lubricating agent, but inside you become more
and more mad.
If this society and this
century are the maddest in the whole history, the credit goes to the past. Five
thousand years of saintly advice to people - the credit goes to those saints.
If people are becoming mad, if people are becoming insane, if people are
committing suicide, if people are becoming murderous, the credit certainly goes
to all your so-called saints, priests, preachers, leaders. They are responsible
for it.
Just the other day I was
telling you the Canadian government wants to investigate, make a deep
investigation of this commune because one American citizen who was a sannyasin
has committed suicide, and another American who was a sannyasin has gone mad
too. Now, I wonder: the person who has committed suicide was sixty years old.
He has been a Christian for sixty years, but Christianity is not investigated.
And he has been a sannyasin for not even sixty days! The credit goes to Christianity,
not to me.
The man who went mad was a
Protestant. Now, I am condemned because he was a sannyasin, but the Protestant
church is not condemned. And he was brought up as a Protestant, he lived as a
Protestant for thirty-five years, and for just a few days he was a sannyasin.
Now, American society is not condemned.
This is strange logic...and I
am trying to help people. When he had come here, he was already mad. He has
come here after six years of psychoanalysis; because psychoanalysis could not
help him he had come here and became a sannyasin. Because the Protestant church
and the priests could not help him, he had come here and become a sannyasin.
But they had done such a good job that it was difficult to bring him back down
to earth.
And he did not remain here for
long; he was here for only three weeks. Now, the credit cannot go to me. If he
becomes mad, I cannot be held responsible. But this strange logic is there.
Here, also, the same logic
continues. If a sannyasin misbehaves, I am condemned. But so many Hindus are
put in jail every day - Hinduism is not condemned. So many Mohammedans
misbehave, but Mohammedanism is not condemned. If a Sikh murders somebody,
Sikhism is not condemned. This is a very stupid and absurd world.
People come to me for help.
Many are helped. Ninety-nine percent of people are helped.
But the one percent has been
damaged so much that it is almost impossible to help them. They can also be
helped, but I am not allowed to help them.
For example, an exhibitionist
comes here who once in a while exposes himself naked.
Now, he can be helped, easily
helped - if he is allowed to move naked. He is not dangerous; he is not doing
any harm to anybody. He simply has this eccentric idea... he enjoys it to shock
you. This is the way of shocking you, this is the way of gaining attention: he
exposes himself naked. If he is simply allowed to move naked and nobody pays
any attention to him, he will be cured.
The cure is simple, very
simple! Don't be shocked, and don't pay attention. It is to shock you and to
get your attention that he is an exhibitionist. If nobody pays any attention,
if he comes naked to you and you talk to him as if he is not naked, he will be
puzzled. He will not be able to believe what is happening. He will go and look
in the mirror to see whether he is naked or not! And what is the point? If
nobody pays any attention and nobody is shocked, he may try wearing clothes -
maybe these are strange people and they can be shocked by wearing clothes!
People can be helped, but the
society does not allow me to help them. Even that one percent can be cured,
because nobody is really incurable. But time will be needed, perseverance will
be needed.
Buddha says: with great
perseverance he meditates, seeking freedom and happiness.
Meditate - meditation means
watchfulness - and you will attain to freedom and bliss.
So awake, reflect, watch.
Work with care and attention.
Live in the way
And the light will grow in you.
The light grows of its own
accord. You simply become more silent, more watchful, more meditative, and the
light descends in you - of its own accord. You need not go anywhere.
By watching and working
The master makes for himself an island
Which the flood cannot overwhelm.
Your watchfulness becomes an
island, a citadel, which no passion, no lust, no greed, no anger, can possess.
With that island, for the first time you become an integrated individual. For
the first time you become a human being.
This human being is absolutely
needed today, this new human being - homo novus.
Enough for today.